Friday, March 19, 2010
Today is a bittersweet day. It is my last day here at my job of 5 years and 3 months! I've loved it here. The people I work with are amazing, and have been so good to me. This truly has been a blessing of a job as long as I've been here, and although I'm excited to be a stay at home mom, I truly am sad to say goodbye to this place. I'm not too good with change. Whether it's good or bad, moving on to something out of my normal routine is hard for me to do.
But, I am doing my best to embrace this change with all of the amazing things to come, it's on to a new chapter for me...the mommy-hood chapter. I'm nervous and scared, yet excited and hopeful all at the same time. So if I seem a little weepy next time you see me, you know why. There is about to be TONS of change with the impending arrival of our new little one. The only thing I can do at this point is rely on the the God I serve for every need whether emotional, spiritual, or physical, for He is always giving of those things in abundance.
I had a midwife appointment yesterday morning, and unfortunately there really hasn't been any progression (meaning no dilation yet). I know anything can still happen, but I couldn't help but be a bit disappointed yesterday...all day. Although I'm nervous about what's to come, I am totally over this pregnancy right now....just being honest.
But with all of the sadness, there is a bright spot! Today is a new day! It's bright and beautiful outside, and the temperatures keep climbing. Plus it's the weekend...and I love weekends. And tomorrow is supposed to be just as amazing as today! So instead of being bummed that we STILL HAVE NO BABY (hehe), and worrying about change, I am choosing to be positive and happy today. I'm going to take a walk, with a smile on my face, because today is a good day! And who knows...maybe we'll have ourselves a little man by the end of the weekend ;)